Why am I Scared to Quitting my Job?
March 19, 2019
Oh my god. Today was a hella stressful day. I have a meeting with one of the directors in the company that I am working for to ask about my startup. Long story short- she told me it was unprofessional of me to schedule a meeting in business hours since this is about my startup. I felt like I was about to have a panic attack.
I learned a lesson today: don't’ share too much about yourself and your goals. I feel this aching feeling in my heart right now and I feel like I am about to cry. I think I need to be less sensitive to these events. I don’t know what is worse- feeling this way or hating myself for having to feel this way.
I was planning on quitting my job when I launched the startup- but for some reason when the director told me that it is unprofessional for me to talk about my start up during working hours, my heart froze. I think deep down inside, I am fucking scared thought I tell myself that I am not. I am scared about not being able to pay bills and losing income stability. I am terrified of walking this road alone because I know that it will be lonely.
I think this is why I have been asking so many people to be my business partner- even people I don’t even know very well. I’m scared.